To put it mildly, my last blog entry was… a hit. Not in terms of lots of replies (and I’d guess that some people weren’t quite sure how to reply), but it roughly quadrupled the usual numbers for traffic for new posts.
Apparently, if I write things with “Sexy” in the title and include the right self-portraits, people are suddenly quite a bit more interested in my blog. Which makes it really tempting to just do that all the time. Oddly, though, I didn’t do that for traffic or attention—even if they did make for welcome side effects. The only reasons for the pictures or the subject were my own catharsis and my own enjoyment, and putting it all out there (ha, ha) felt good. Especially since, ultimately, it showed me there was nothing to fear.
Nonetheless, that got me to thinking how easy it would be if I always posted SEXY pictures and talked about SEXY things all the time, preferably in plenty of super HOT AND SEXY detail sure to shock and titillate the masses. Or even if I went back to video-based game reviews and instead of including my “cuteness” as a bonus, I made it the main feature, plus a healthy dose of innuendo and flirtation. Maybe I’d even change my name to SEXY Gaming Pixie to go with the new gimmick! Surely, my site would be popular in no time!
Then I remembered I’m just not that cynical. Neither am I that devoted to drawing attention to myself. Besides, if I did do that, I would end up hating myself—for legit reasons this time. It’s one of the ironies of my milquetoast existence: I’m not good at doing things just to be popular, especially things that are shallow. Maybe that whole “introvert” thing makes it seem like too much effort and a bit too silly.
Sexy stuff or otherwise, anything I put here is done because I feel like it, for my own self-expression and/or self-exploration. I also hope my creative stuff and exercises in public therapy might give some interest/encouragement/ideas/etc. to other people since I like being of help. Changing my motives would mean changing me, and it wouldn’t be for the better.
But the extra traffic would be nice. ;p